Monday, March 10, 2008

I am Amber Rayne Grabers mother!

I admit I dissapointed my daughter in the past. Ambers father dissapointed Amber in the past too. All I want everyone to know is the truth. We failed our little girl when drugs were in our lives, luckily I came out of that lifestyle ALIVE! I WANT MY DAUGHTER IN MY LIFE. I am clean now & I have years of clean drug tests to prove that. Whats holding me back? High powered attorneys of wealthy grandparents. For the record, I AM NOT A MONSTER, NEVER WAS & I WILL STOP AT NOTHING TO EXPOSE ALL OF THE LIES IN THE CASE JUST SO I CAN PROVE MYSELF.

ITS NOT FAIR I WAS DRAGGED THROUGH THE MUD FOR YEARS WHILE AMBERS FATHER WAS PORTRAYED AS SOMETHING HE WAS NOT. AMBERS FATHER WAS INVOLVED WITH DRUGS AND DIED BECAUSE OF IT. LETS STOP LYING TO OURSELVES AND AMBER. Unlike others, I WILL RAISE MY DAUGHTER TO KNOW THE TRUTH ABOUT LIFE & PEOPLE, AND I WILL TEACH HER ABOUT FORGIVENESS.

Its only because of lack of forgiveness that I still DO NOT HAVE A BETTER RELATIONSHIP WITH MY CHILD. I should be embraced as Ambers mother, and embraced for turning my life around. I told the truth in court many times, while Ambers fathers team of lawyers and Ambers grandmothers team of lawyers LIED. Lied about Erik, and LIED about me.

I never wanted to have to do this and go to this extent, but once a better relationship with my daughter AMber Rayne Graber wasnt encouraged...I decided I had to. I waited around long enough for some kind of vindication. I deserve that, & I deserve to have my child in my arms every night.

I am not a monster. I admitted I was wrong many times. I need to start healing from this part of my life and this is the only way I know how. Its by telling the truth.

There are plenty of great things we can all say about Ambers father, but the fact remains he put my daughter in worse danger than I could have ever imagined possible, and I want people to know the truth about it all. Its such a shame. Its unfortunate that it has to be done this way, but I am left with no other choice.

Amber Rayne Graber didnt have to see what she saw on February 22nd 2006. Amber Rayne Graber didnt have to wake up to her fathers lifeless body. 

WE BOTH MADE MISTAKES BUT I AM STILL ALIVE AND FIGHTING FOR HER! I am still alive and I will fight for her everyday. Just because we are simple people doesnt mean we dont love and want her. I am glad Amber lives with rich people that can give her a dream life, but only I can give amber the life Amber always dreamed of. A LIFE WITH HER MOMMY. Thats the truth. Ambers coming home to me...one day.

16 comments:

meleah rebeccah said...

I have always been one of your biggest supporters and I will continue to do whatever I can to ensure you are reunited with your daughter.

Much Love.

xxoo

Meleah Rebeccah Hawthorne

Team Amber said...

thanx maleah, i need as much support that i can get. my lil momma is comin home soon, i will stop at nothin, i have this insane ambition.

meleah rebeccah said...

I am behind you 100% xxoo

Unknown said...

hi meleah i was wondering if you are still on team amber and support it as much as you did in 2008

Unknown said...

akmAmber... its Aunt Susie and yes baby girl we all still very much support Team Amber!!! not a single day goes by that we don't think about you. the pain we feel is as fresh as the day you were taken from us. we made the blogs in the hope that you would 1 day find it and know how loved you are. you are missed every single day!!!! our hearts have been broken and will be until we are able to get you back in our lives.. it breaks our hearts thinking about how much we missed out on, but it helps us to know that one day we will be part of your future. we cant wait for the day to come that we get you back in our lives.. please, please, please know that you have a family that loves you. hope you see this. LOVE YOU BABY GIRL
<3 <3 <3

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meleah rebeccah said...

I have always been and will ALWAYS be - Team Amber!

I have missed you so much. Seeing your words right now are making my heart sing.

I am sooo happy you found this page and finally know [for real] how much we've been thinking of you and how much we miss you every single day.

I sincerely hope one day we will all be reunited. You deserve every once of love.


XOXOOX

Minnesota team amber said...

Jenn, this is Shelly, Amber's second cousin, I just want to support you and let you know Amber does needs her mama. Don't let Joyce keep you out of that girls life. Never give up!!!!!

Sorry this support is coming so late, but between mama and daughter it is never too late.

Shelly

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Unknown said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMBER! <3 I hope all of your hopes and dreams come true!